Ugh, i have a boyfriend at the moment and I am very happy with him, but that doesn't mean I'm not haunted by the past. I'm haunted by the 'L'word cos of a boy. I'm afraid of falling in love cos of a boy. I'm afraid to be myself with my current boyfriend cos of a boy. There are so many things that have changed me cos of a boy and for that i hate boys. Always and forever. But oh god do i love them:-). If this makes any sense you can comment or just nod your head, I'll understand.